Series of thoughts

Entry 1

The last year was…different to say the least. Spending an entire school year learning from home was quite the experience. While most people I know say it was harder than regular school, honestly I enjoyed it. I got to stay in bed and didn’t have to wake up at 6 a.m. every day or walk through the street in the winter because no one ever shoveled properly.

Remote learning made me feel more comfortable participating in class which was something I struggled with a lot in person. I would never want to answer questions or do group assignments but with remote learning, there were no group assignments and if there was, the teachers had us choose our group members since they knew we would talk more. but let’s be honest… Zoom classes were dreadful, to say the least. Whenever a teacher would ask a question everyone would sit in awkward silence like we were 4 watching “Dora The Explorer” waiting impatiently for her to stop asking “do you see it too?” I mean come on now just move on already geez.

But I digress even though the last year has made my social skills more nonexistent than ever. I enjoyed it. I got all A’s in my classes for the first time in a long time and I was proud of that. And not seeing my friends for over a year will make it just as fun to see them again in person. I am both terrified and excited about what comes next.

Entry 2

Time flies… I never really considered that until it was too late. I’m 17 and I start my senior year in the fall. Needless to say, I’m terrified. For one I am not mentally prepared for all the college-heavy stuff they have planned. To be honest I don’t even think my brain has fully come to terms with the fact that I will be graduating next year and then going off to college. Which let me just say… I do not do well with people so um… That will be interesting. 

Though I am a little excited to go out there and push myself and get out of Boston for a change. As a person who has never once traveled I have that to look forward to. But I will miss seeing my family 24/7. Ah who am I kidding, they annoy me sometimes haha. 

One thing I can say is that high school taught me a lot. Always pick and choose your friends wisely, don’t be so caught up in everyone else’s drama, and most of all cherish the time you have with people because it’s sad to say most of the friends we have in high school don’t stay in our lives forever. Some leave sooner than others. I will always remember my time in high school and as terrified as I am for senior year, I’m ready for it. Hopefully, I can spend it in person with my friends and enjoy the last time we have together.  

Entry 3

2022. One year from now. It may seem like a while away but it’s coming so fast. A year from now, I will be preparing myself for my freshman year of college. Am I ready? Not at all! But I’m ready for a challenge. I hope I will have grown more not only in a physical sense but mentally.

I want to better myself and find new things I like. I hope that within a year I will be on that path more than ever. Five months! Isn’t it crazy that there are five months of 2021 left? A lot can happen in five months. Hell, it feels like it just turned into 2021.

Needless to say, I think I’ll change a lot by the time 2022 comes around. I see myself spending more time living in the moment because knowing myself I won’t want to leave and when the time comes it’s gonna be hard. I tend to not fully come to terms with things until they are about to happen. Sad, I know. I’m excited for a new year and finding out who I’m going to become. It may be scary but hey, life is scary sometimes.

Entry 4

Friends are one of the most important things in life. I mean no one likes to be alone, and having someone there for you is always a good thing. When I was younger I had an amazing friend. We did everything together. She was like a sister to me at that point but she moved away during the third grade and I haven’t seen her since. We have talked a few times but it’s not the same. That made me realize how important friends are. We often take advantage of our friends. Constantly thinking they will be with us forever. We don’t cherish the time we spend with them or try to live in the moment and it sucks. When my friend moved away I felt heartbroken, lost, and confused. I was young. I didn’t understand that she was leaving until she didn’t come back. Now that I’m older I cherish the memories I had with her and trust me there are a lot. We did so much together. I wouldn’t be the same person I am today without those memories. I hope one day we can see each other again and our bond will grow once more. I miss her dearly but I know she’s doing ok and that’s all that matters to me. Keep your friends close, show them you care. Trust me it’s worth it.