Red is sus

Red Is sus.

I’m red.

Before I could even explain, I’m outed.

It’s as if, everything that comes out of my mouth is a lie to them.

Like I failed card swipe more than 15 times

So I deserve to be guilty? 

Trust is broken.

Trust for us is like a thin layer of glass that runs down our family. 

“Where were you?”

I was in lower admin heading to storage.

As if that wasn’t specific enough-they still don’t believe me. 

Sometimes I wonder if they even trust half of the things I say to them. 

Black could confess if they wanted too

“I’m it,” but still — black gets away with it. 

Sometimes I wish I was black. 

If I do the same, will I also be excused?

No. 

Because I’m red. 

I can’t do simple tasks without being questioned.

Same as if I have friends and they immediately find it weird.

Can a girl not be friends with the opposite gender?

Will I disgrace my family? 

Am I immediately considered a whore? 

It’s not my fault we share the same interests. 

Not all girls constantly love talking about makeup products and what not.

“You’re lying.”

No.

I’ve told you multiple times — I

Don’t. Have. A. Boyfriend. 

I was processing data

Rebooting WiFi

Turning on the waterways 

I was clearing asteroids

Cause that seemed like it was the only thing I could clear. 

We have a pandemic

I can’t even go outside

One phone call and I’m sus

I’m sus

I’m sus

I’m sus

And that’s the only thing you trust

When you don’t have basic evidence 

But sure with my age — 

Sus-ing me is a must 

Sometimes they say

“I trust you, but I don’t trust them”

Although part of that is true

Most of it isn’t new

If you got to know them 

Then you’ll see

Judging a book by its cover 

Is not by all means the best evidence

But the worst judgement you could ever use

I am your daughter

You should recognise my personality by now

I don’t drink

I don’t smoke

I get good grades

I don’t like lying

What hurts the most is — you still don’t know me

You don’t know me at all

You don’t trust me

You like watching me fall

What would people think of me?

If they’ve seen your reaction. 

They’ll do the same of course. 

“Oh, lets vote her out.”

“Without a doubt, it’s her.”