We love each other in song lyrics. I am so in love, I sent them the lyrics to “Chinese Satellite.” It was the only way I could say it, in words that aren’t my own. There are raw, unexpressed feelings that I can only show this way, and I know they feel the same.
They send me songs of their own, a simple: this makes me think of you. I get those messages and can’t help but smile. There’s something about those playlists and mixed CDs that make it seem like we’re next to each other again, like we were when they played Neutral Milk Hotel for me for the first time. When we play those songs in sync, I can feel them. Now I send the links unprompted, and they know what I mean — no words needed.