I want to move to the North Pole

1.

The last couple of weeks doing SJI has been pretty fun, to be honest, I got to do things I usually wouldn’t do. It’s not every day I write a personal essay or something like that. I enjoyed writing and pushing myself to write about topics I wish got more recognition. That being said, I’m going to miss all of the staff members, and being able to write about things. Who knows if my trip next summer gets cancelled, maybe I’ll do SJI again.

I have been thinking about school over the last few weeks. When my mom told me the plans for school in the fall honestly, I’m not sure how I feel about it. On one hand, I don’t think anyone should go back to school because it’s not safe, but on the other, I think we need to go back to school as a rising junior that has to take PSAT, SAT, and now the MCAS that got cancelled in my sophomore year due to COVID-19. On top of that if I get placed in another AP class I will have to take the AP Exam for that as well. I don’t feel comfortable enough to say that I will do well if I continue remote learning. Seeing as I received a D for my advanced algebra class even though I did all my work (that made me mad) I’m not confident with the grading or teaching that BPS has planned for the upcoming school year. 

So, in a few weeks, my older brother is moving into his college dorm currently, he shares a room with my little brother. When he moves out, I’m switching rooms with my little brother since I need more space. I still need to buy a few things, but omg I can’t wait. I just want to switch rooms already and buy everything! Imma miss my brother, but I can’t wait till he moves out lol.

2.

So, yesterday around 3:40 p.m., I started shopping on Amazon, and it took me like three hours to finish shopping. In the end, I spent nearly 300 dollars. I was so focused on finding stuff for my room that I completely forgot to buy new headphones! Now I have to spend more money later today and buy them because the ones I have now are slowly reaching their death day.

I think I have a problem with caramel ice cream with a caramel swirl. Every time I go to the store for something, I always come back with that ice cream too. At this point I can’t help it, it’s just so good.

I need to finish the mural on my door; I started it like two months ago. I don’t even know. All I know is it has been a while I just need white paint to finish it so I can get the right colors. I keep staring at it, and I think I hate it …

11:43 a.m. 8/11/20 — plan my funeral I’m dying from heat.

I’m tired of these heat waves. Like it shouldn’t be this hot I’m over here dying with fans and AC’s on. You know what, forget this. I want to move to the north pole.

Omg so my friend showed me the after series a couple of months ago, (i loved it) I saw the first movie for it and the second movie comes out Oct. 2nd I can’t wait. I need it in my life already.

So, I just had to wash and dry my dog … long story short I’m covered in dog fur now … great.

Update: I am no longer covered in fur, and I have retrieved pizza.

I am so tired, and I don’t even know why I slept pretty well last night.

3.

Yesterday my older brother and I went to Target (we were shopping for 2 hours because he kept wanting to go to different places). While I was there, I bought SkullCandy wireless earbuds, and I love them so much. I also purchased a new PopSocket, but I’ve realized I have a problem with painting everything I buy. Like I bought a new hairbrush a few weeks ago and painted the back of it. Then I’ve painted my PopSockets in the past. Phone cases, and now I want to paint the charging case for my earbuds like what is wrong with me.

Stuck with you by Ariana Grande is a bop no one can tell me otherwise. 

So I ordered the stuff for my room on Monday, and everything except three things are coming today. Since I ordered most of it on my mom’s Amazon account since she has Amazon Prime she keeps getting text messages and it’s annoying her. Lol sorry mom. 

I just realized I have nowhere to put this stuff … oh well, until I figure it out it shall be in the corner of my room till my brother moves out on the second. 

Does anyone need any music suggestions? I gotcha.

• “Queen of Broken Hearts” by blackbear
• Any song by Kate Stewart
• “My Friends” by Bohnes
• “Steven” by Jake Miller

Alright, that’s enough music suggestions.

I’m craving some pasta right now sadly I don’t have any. Someone should buy me some pasta for real.‍

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4.

I’m very conflicted at the moment. With school nearing I’m not sure if I have to buy school supplies for in-person learning or just a notebook for remote learning. I don’t know anymore, at this point I feel like we’re not going back. Hell, I wouldn’t be surprised if they shut the city down again. Nothing is going back to normal, and honestly, it’s pretty scary. This whole thing makes you realize how much we take our lives for granted. We don’t think twice about the things we have, and we don’t take advantage of the things we are given. Instead, we act like it’s not a big deal and when everything is taken away, we’re left with a sense of hopelessness wondering when things will go back to “normal.” 

I’m listening to a song by Tate McRae, and it’s killing my good mood, but it is a good song. Eh, I guess I always will love sad songs lol.

I wish I could have a cat. They are so cute and cuddly, and I just love them so much. 

I’m currently painting a cupcake on my new sketchbook. It’s so cute. I bought a smaller sketchbook than I usually would for when I’m out, and I want to draw something.