The world is crazy right now

1. Dreams

Dear Diary,

The first day I saw her I didn’t know this was going to go there. I mean yes, she is pretty cool but this is what I least expected. I said “hi” and she answered and we talked for a while. Then we exchanged our social media handles and stuff and we continued with our days and everything was normal. But lately things have become very weird. We’ve been talking sometimes and all that. But God, why am I dreaming about her? What’s happening to me?

It’s very weird and I feel like I need to let her know because maybe if I do, I will stop having dreams about her. But at the same time I don’t want her to think I’m some kind of creep.

I’ve been praying to stop, I don’t know what to do anymore. But the weirdest part about it is that I don’t know why I have been dreaming about her. I tried to ask myself the question plenty of time but still no answers. It’s not an every night thing but it happens very often and it bothers me. I really want it to stop because I feel like a weirdo. And I think everyone who would hear this story might think the same thing. After all, it’s probably because of quarantine. I don’t know, it’s possible. My dreams are not weird or anything. I just find it weird that I’m dreaming about the same person very often without knowing why. We don’t even talk that much, we only text each other sometimes. I just don’t get it!

2. How is college going to be?

Dear Diary,

I’m starting class August 24th and not just any class, I’m talking about actually starting college. Yes, I know this is very stressful, I know that I’m ready, but at the same time I have no idea how it is going to be. Plus I already have a class in my schedule from 5 p.m. to 8 p.m. Exhausting right? 

I’m trying to keep my calm but I am stressed a little bit. We are not sure how this is going to go, hopefully I can stay on campus because I would not like to be going home at 8 p.m. except if I have a car which I highly doubt.

But even though change is scary, sometimes it’s for the best. Change can turn out to be very rewarding. I am excited and nervous at the same time for this new journey. But I think I got it, hopefully. I think I’m going to be more confident about it when I actually start but for now my thoughts are all over the place.

Everything about college sounds stressful from classes to funds and everything that comes with the package sounds crazy. Hopefully I figure it all out, we will see how things go. After all I need to figure it out so I can crush it, I can’t let all this crush me!

3. What’s going on in the world?

Dear Diary,

Sometimes I wonder how it would be if I lived in another country. Or how it would be if I was born a different nationality. I’m always wondering how they live in other places. Is it different or is it the same as the U.S.? I lived in Haiti and saw how people there are. I came here and saw, too. But there are so many other countries in this world. I feel like I want to go and spend at least one year in each of them.

It seems like people don’t really care to know how people live in other countries. Also people don’t really care what’s going on, if they are living a good life or not. The only thing most people care about is to go to some fancy part of different countries to have a nice vacation and things like that. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying you shouldn’t have a good time or enjoy yourself when you can, but don’t just think about the country for vacation because there is so much more to those places. I know we can’t do it for all of them because there are so many countries in the world but we could for one or two. I just think we should care for each other more, not just when we need to spend a good time.

Maybe I’m the only one who thinks like that. I hope not …