The fear of love

Love isn’t the most ideal thing in the world to some.

Everyone wants to find it, though.

People ask questions about their first love, and who it was, and what it felt like when you feel it. Nobody ever has an answer. 

The whole world leans in, you don’t know what to do. 

You may sit there and cry, or go out, and cry. 

But you always end up thinking about that person or thing, and it will never leave. 

The fear hits you hard, and you don’t know how to react when it happens.

You love your mom, dad, grandparents, whoever but that’s different. They’re with you forever and always in your memory. 

When you love another person who knows that you’re struggling and trying to find a way out, it becomes harder. 

You become dependent on them and place your problems on them, but to you it’s a way to express your love without saying anything.

When everything is done, you realize what’s going on. 

You see from the outside in that you were never in love, you just liked the feeling, and the idea of it.

 It made you feel euphoric.

 Love is scary, but it can also be good. 

What comes out of it is you finding your soulmate and reaching for more moments with them and trying to be more aware of things that are going on with each other rather than it being one-sided.

That’s why love should never be touched. And if it is, make sure you’re ready.